I don’t
have many fond memories of my father. In fact, there’s only one that really
stands out. And that one only became a good memory later in life. My dad lived
off my mother for twenty-five years. He cut grass on the side, but only when
Mom couldn’t afford his beer and cigarettes. Even though he didn’t put into the
pot while I was growing up, he was still king of the castle. What he said went,
and so on. When his mother died, instead of helping Mom pay off the immense
credit card bills our family had accumulated just trying to make ends meet, Dad
went out and bought himself a new truck with his inheritance money. Class act,
my father.
Now, most
of you might be wondering why this became a fond
memory for me in my adult years, so let me explain. Not that Dad meant to do
this, but he taught me a very valuable lesson that I will always be grateful
for. By observing his inactivity, I learned what not to do. Because of Dad, I will do anything to make sure my
family is safe and secure, financially or otherwise. Thanks, Dad.
Don’t get
me wrong. I don’t think my father was an evil man. He didn’t beat me or my
mother. The only real abuse he was guilty of was emotional, but he was subtle
about it. The man never once said he was proud of me, nor did he congratulate me
when I did something right. In my freshman year of high school, I brought home
all As, to which he responded, “What? You think you’re smarter than me?”
Yeah, he
wasn’t evil, but he was a horrible human being. He simply lacked the will to
participate in life for fear of failure. He felt no need to provide for his
family because his wife was capable. I don’t think it ever crossed his mind
that things would have been much easier if he’d have gotten even a part-time
job. From what I was told, Dad’s step-father was a good man with a strong work
ethic. Why my father didn’t turn out the same way, I haven’t a clue. Everybody
seemed to love my dad, though—strangers, extended family, even my childhood
friends. The man was as charismatic as he was lazy. By
the time I reached my final year of school, I came to realize that if I ever
wanted to succeed at anything in life, I had to be better than him. Once again,
thanks, Dad.
In my
newest novel, Life After Dane, I
created a serial killer whose childhood was filled with physical abuse and
neglect. I kept one key thought in mind: What would I have become had I
followed in my father’s footsteps? Though no one character was based on my
father, I see parts of him everywhere in the book. That’s a first for me.
Usually, I find myself bleeding into
my characters.
In the end,
I turned out all right because I was able to use my old man as a template for
what I didn’t want to become. Dane, not so much. But you’ll have to read the
book to understand why.
Until next
time, Books and Pals,
E.
P.S. Big Al,
you die in the next book. Not this one. Cheers!
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I may have to hire some fictional bodyguards, E. At least I can be glad it wasn't Dane who kills me. I sure hope I go fast. :)
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3 comments:
Edward, you show great strength by not following in your father's footsteps. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. Lyn
More power to you Edward, I kinda wish I had the nerve to read horror books. This sounds like a good one.
Edward, your mother must've been an amazingly strong woman. I'm guessing you take after her.
Thanks for sharing.
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